Mean

i don't know...do you have people in your life that just seem like they have to be a little mean sometimes? i guess it feels like i have some of that. i don't know if it's something i'm provoking or just a bad day for people with all the assorted moods. if it's me, i'd sure like to know so i can do what i can to help, but if it's not...goodness...i don't know what to do. pray and be patient? defend self? some of all?

it's just that i don't want to have to be a baracade-girl. i've worked for many years to deconstruct the insulation for my heart. at the same time, though, i want to be sensitive to the struggles of others too...their deconstruction of junk.

maybe i'm just too sensitive and need to buck up...but at the same time maybe it's not a negative. perhaps having a softer side again isn't a bad thing...but how to weild off arrows...?

confusing.