Married life is on the horizon, and I've been thinking about how my life may or may not...or must...change to adjust. Don't get me wrong...I'm SUPER excited. It's just that in the midst of all of the wonderful things that will happen, there will be some adjustments and...in the reality of any change, even good ones...I'll have some losses. So, I've been doing some pondering to prepare.
One of the things that comes to mind is how crazy-busy my life gets with my job. I work a 1.4 (1.0 is full-time) to make a bit more money. A more ministry-oriented job, you know...low pay generally. ;) So, when it gets especially insane, I'm basically dead and can get lax on other things. The notion of coming home to more intentional maintenance of a household (a step-daughter, cleaning and meal preps) seems a little ominous. I want the change, but the thought of it can be a little overwhelming. Trying to figure out how to manage all that on top of what I already struggle to manage...hmm. Here's to hoping it's possible! Guessing it will be, but the getting there might be a little traumatic. Ahh!! ;)
Complicating this is the fact that any "extra" time I have is usually directed toward passions I have for speaking, writing and assisting how I can with church. Having a job that I don't love any more, these moments are like water for a parched soul. So...you can see where I'm going here...how do I do those things with the job from hell and the blessing of a new family??? Hoping it's possible too! But again...the getting there might be a little traumatic. ;)
I wish I could find a job that released me more in my passions. Sigh. Baby steps.
Whatever is headed my way, I know that processing outside of my own head is probably a good thing. That and connecting with God in all of His goodness and wisdom. He has all of this in His hands. Doing so will help me clear the fog to see all the absolutely wonderful things that are on the way...miracles right from the Father's heart.