Girl Class And More...

pastor ryan gave me an opportunity to do a class on "being god's girl". feminine value is something that is so near and dear to my heart that i couldn't help but jump on it. the tricky thing...well, many, of course...putting years and years worth of journey into a 7-week deal. very tough.


i've also had a lot of fogginess about topics, flow, etc...and the immense wisdom of others too. there's a definite struggle between the weight of sharing just my own journey into this...the fact that my journey has been more 3-d circling as opposed to linear...and then there's stopping to ask if there's something different that god wants shared for/to the others.

PLUS...with a few exceptions, the class is for women who are "older" than me. it's a little intimidating. but i'm finding...per a few conversations...that a heart is a heart is a heart...and we just need to be real with it. let the holy spirit do his thing... so i've got to step passed my nerves. yikes...:)

one thing that i've stumbled on...satan does not like too much talk about this! convinces me all the more that women hold such great value...and immense threat...that he's worked over-time to keep us under his boot. jackass! i've had such bizarre battles in preparing for this thing...whispers of how 'this bible isn't even relevant for women', etc. but it hit me the other day...one of the greatest potential gifts for women is intimacy...being so beautifully relational and all...so much so that verses here and there "instructing" wouldn't be the typical voice of god's heart. so instead, i've been looking at specific stories (relationships) of women and going from there. man, i can't wait to find out the rest of their stories when i get to go be with god. :)

we'll see how it goes. i'm certainly not perfect...which is maybe my biggest challenge of personal acceptance with this opportunity.

the other cool thing is that i may be doing another sermon soon. we'll see if it's in god's cards...may not be which is cool too. i've been getting to go to the 'sermon prep' meetings with uncle tim and pastor ryan (super fun and interesting)...the topics stem from 'imago dei'...which i love, love, love. again, i expect a ton of battle with the accuser over the deal...it's just so interesting to see what god is doing...lots of unexpected surprises.