Sunday, March 1, 2009

Strange Predicament...

ok...here's the thing...i know it sounds strange and even harsh, but i don't mean it that way. it's a true and serious predicament for me. one that i have a hard time understanding...and thus, resolving.

it seems that i'm "likeable" to men who struggle with mental illnesses of all varieties and by men who are freshly beginning their recovery from addiction.

i don't know why...but it appears that i am a form of flypaper.

but how do you tell someone who a) doesn't necessarily have a good grip on reality and/or b) who isn't really looking for a relationship as much as a new addictable or lonliness bandaid that there's just no way that i am interested???

i don't want to like cause an "episode" or a "relapse" with a rejection.

and to be honest..."no" hasn't always been effective in the first place.

i have a feeling it is simply due to a "warm body" mentality...so i somehow need to figure out how to be classicly unavailable while still being able to be a "nice" girl.

dang it all...

2 comments:

Michelle said...

I can relate! That's one of the good things about being married--being permanantly unavailable! But I did have that same problem and I never figured out why. I thought maybe I was just too nice? I dunno...

Jody said...

Hey, it will be worth attracting all the "mentals" when the real one comes along...patience....patience..it's gonna happen soon!!
Love ya-
Jody